No Room For Doubts

We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28, NRSV)

Have you ever heard anyway say you should do what you love and love what you do?  How about  they work for a living, but live to do something else?  Lately the latter has been true for me, and I can’t honestly say that I have ever really felt the first one.

There have been two major employment type phases in my life; seven and a half years in the food service industry as a fast food manager and twelve years in an office setting in an accounting position of one type or another.  During my fast food years I couldn’t wait to get into the professional field, and now that I have been in the professional field I wish I could be in more of a creative position.  It would be pure heaven to be in a job role that required me to read all day!  Does anyone know where I might find one of those?

Is it human nature to never be satisfied?  I excelled in the restaurant industry because I can multi-task, have a pleasant people pleasing attitude, and a sense of urgency.  I also do well in the accounting realm because my brain likes the logical side of it and enjoys digging down into the details of things to see how they come together to make the financial picture as a whole.  However I am not convinced that I would ever be completely satisfied in either of these fields.

I miss the simplicity of fast food.  Sure the hours weren’t the greatest and holidays weren’t paid days off, but it was nice to clock out and not take work home with me.  I enjoy the perks of challenging my brain with reconciliations and being home nights and weekends, but the stress levels are much higher and I definitely take work home with me.

Do I feel dissatisfied because I feel my most current callings have been in more creative veins these past few years?  Music is something that is a great pleasure for me.  Writing has been a scary and intimidating road to start down, but there is satisfaction in seeing my words spilling from my head onto the computer screen as my fingers fly across the keyboard.  There is no simple answer to this.

Perhaps there is a divine plan in all of this.  Each step along my career path has been preparing me for the future that has yet to unfold itself.  God blesses us each with multiple gifts and talents, and wants us to use them all for his glory.  We are all kingdom workers and have the awesome privilege of working for the ultimate provider.

So how do we cheerfully perform the tasks that don’t excite or invigorate us, but are necessary and useful even if they are mundane?  Prayers, lots and lots of prayers!  I find myself praying for strength, and for wisdom in performing every task to the best of my ability, and patience to endure while doing what has to be done until the tasks are finished.

Lately I have found myself praying that God will help me to become more content with my lot in life.  Visions of grandeur may be clouding my perceptions and leading me astray.  Satan will hurl darts at us, and each dart is custom tailored for the person he takes aim at.  He is looking to sow seeds of doubt and dissatisfaction.  His goal is to distract us from the kingdom works of our hands.    So daily I must ask God to provide me with the proper armour needed to protect myself from the evil darts with my name on them.

Like any good and loving father, he will provide each of us with exactly what we need if we ask him to.

My brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of any kind, consider it nothing but joy, because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance; and let endurance have its full effect, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking in nothing.  If any of you is lacking in wisdom, ask God, who gives to all generously and ungrudgingly, and it will be given you.  But ask in faith, never doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind; for the doubter, being double-minded and unstable in every way, must not expect to receive anything from the Lord. (James 1:2-8, NRSV)


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